• Alex Antally


There’s two people living inside of me,

and sometimes I get the feeling

I’m neither one of them.

I look in the mirror and I don’t recognize myself,

so I wonder how did I ended up here,

but there’s no answer for that...

I try to go back to my old self

but I can’t,

it’s too hard to be someone that’s left in the past,

then I try to be the person

I want to become in the future...

somehow I end up even more broken than before...

I look in the mirror

knowing that it’s harder to be alive

than dead.

So I ask myself:

” Living is more painful than dying, do you want to live?”

and there’s no answer to be found, not now.

- Alex Antally 🌸

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